I too have some fucked up mental issues in my brain. Or I think so.
I had problems before with anxiety, schizophrenia and delusions. It all started with weed. Now, 5-6 years later I'm all good. I just had to live trough it all by myself. In one long period I had a girl and I could talk to her bout it, but she could not understand nor could I explain myself properly. That's the issue here, people will just label you mad, nuts or stuff. But that doesn't need to be a bad thing. You can think of it as a big obstacle you need to overcome. Maybe you have some superpowers? I think that you can only be sane if you realize that you have some issues. It's like your brain realizes that it has issues therefore it's rational? Logic?
You just need to be confident and have a great will power and say is my mental illness aka problem going to ruin me another moment? Is it going to ruin me another day? Am I going to be a slave to my problem till the rest of my life? Scream fuck the world, no, I am bigger and stronger that that. I will overcome my problems. I am aware that I have a problem, therefore I will explore it. I will hack my problem. I will see the patterns of my problem and I will cut the little fucker on the roots. And yes, that's what I did. And today I enjoy life in most of my situations, sometimes battling with depression or just laziness. Who knows, I know that I beated that social anxiety, paranoia and reality delusions. "Mind playin' tricks on me"
Still today I have some problems but it's a minor issue. I hacked 95% of my problem and I'm not afraid to say it. Yes I am a lunatic. I am a mad man. It's just my thing. It's my way of living and I'd wish I had more courage or balls to show my craziness to the world. In a positive way of course. As far as I know I'm glad that I had these 'problems' because they made me into the person I am.
Fellas, friends. I know that my stuff is like a tiny ant to someone's elephant but I think that nothing is impossible or everything is possible - you just need the proper mindset and realization to overcome your fears, problems... Nobody is going to help you, only you can help yourself. You're all alone in your mind. People are here and there for other stuff, like empathy, listening, caring and stuff. But only you can help yourself.
And one more thing, I hate when someone says I'm diagnosed with xyz. It's just another label that you save into your memory and every time you think oh I have this and that It's okay to feel this way. It's another labeling. Labeling your mind, putting your thoughts in prison. I'm not saying that It can't help but I'd say it battle it yourself before accepting defeat and going to see professional help. Not saying it's a bad thing but just my attitude is that you can fix things yourself. Aren't we hackers? Than hack yourself!
