Too long, didn't read. However, I will say that none of us know the true answer, and none of us will until the end...at which point it won't matter no matter what you believe. You just have to go with what your heart and mind tells you and learn to coexist with everyone else.
P.S. I am a believer in God. I am a believer in Christ. But I have no reason to explain myself. Only to say I live by faith. It's what my heart tells me.