It begins again.

[lucid]

My unbearable lack of motivation to do anything. It seems to align perfectly with starting school. Up until school started I was quite excited to do all sorts of productive things. Things like: coding, breaking my Windows machine, breaking the webserver on my debian VM, breaking my neighbors wifi in hopes that they decide to stop using WEP, breaking into the practice lock that I haven't already picked yet, breaking into my own house.... you get the idea. Now all I want to do is come home and play Borderlands. Don't know what it is about school that does it to me. Must be all the structure, and the idea that I have 5 months of videos about Windows 7 + Windows 8 to watch. Plus the fact that it's all just some really poorly dressed douchebag--who's probably never been with a women despite being 43--telling me in the same monotonous voice every last single fucking feature of Win7 + 8, and I'm just supposed to be able to absorb all this information that he's vomiting at me.

I hate just watching some fucker talk. It's no way to learn. At least there's the Unix System Administration class which should be interesting. Also the Security + Prep class. Although that teacher sucks at his job and will probably not teach or show us a thing in class, and instead just refer us to more videos of other poorly dressed gray skinned fucks talking in a way that somehow makes computer security utterly boring.

[RedBullAddicted]

I know what you mean.. I start working at 8 and stop between 17 - 18 o'clock. I arrive at home at 18:30 and then I need to eat something and spend some time with le wife. After the day I feel worn out and tired but also excited cause the 2 hours in the evening are all I have to focus on something interesting and try to learn something new. You can imagine that the learning process after the day in the evening is kinda slow and thus frustrating. Guess it depends on how bad you want something. Sure I don't really feel like doing anything else than going to bed, watching TV or play a game but most of the time I grab a laptop or a book and try to learn at least something small. Starting something new and difficult is the most frustrating task. You sit there reading and trying and you just don't understand whats it all about. This goes on for 2, 3 or even 4 days until you finally start to grasp something. As soon as the understanding starts it gets more and more easy to force yourself to go on with it The first steps are always the hardest.. lol. You need to find something you really, really want to learn cause this will is what gets you through the frustrating days. As soon as you start realizing that you made some progress it will get more and more easy to get back to that topic, even when you are tired from the day. I think I know exactly what you are talking about and I hope these lines do help at least a little bit

Edit: Considering what you wrote it seems to me that you have to many things you want to do at the same time. Try to focus on one thing after another.
 

[lucid]

Indeed they do. I managed to come home and start tweaking around with my new switch which ended up taking up quite some time. Now I don't feel so bad about relaxing

[Kulverstukas]

bitching bitching

I feel you bro... same situation with me, except that I have no female to waste time on listening to shit she has to say
yeah, I get home about the same time you do and then all I wanna do is just nothing. An hour debugging, reading or coding some block is hard... very little time for myself :/

[lucid]

I feel you bro... same situation with me, except that I have no female to waste time on listening to shit she has to say
yeah, I get home about the same time you do and then all I wanna do is just nothing. An hour debugging, reading or coding some block is hard... very little time for myself :/

Work and school kill creativity. Especially work depending on what kind of job you have. It isn't right for humans to dedicate their full time and energy into some corporation/factory/whathaveyou, then they have literally zero time to do what they want for themselves and their families.

[Kulverstukas]

Heh I am lucky then to have a job that does not kill my creativity I get to do creative stuff always

[proxx]

A meteorology professor stood before his Meteorology 101 class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly he picked up a very large and empty glass mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a jar of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles, of course, rolled into the open spaces between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.

The professor picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar and of course the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with an unanimous yes.

The professor then produced two cans of beer from under the table and then proceeded to pour the entire contents into the jar, effectively filling the empty space between the grains of sand. The students laughed.

"Now," said the professor, as the laughter subsided, "I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The golf balls are the important things -- your family, your partner, your health, your children, your friends, your favorite passions -- things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full.

"The pebbles are the other things that matter, like your job, your house, your car. The sand is everything else -- the small stuff.

"If you put the sand into the jar first," he continued, "there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for your life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have room for the things that are important to you. Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your partner out dancing. Play another 18.

"There will always be time to go to work, clean the house, give a dinner party and fix the disposal. Take care of the golf balls first -- the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand."

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the beer represented. The professor smiled. "I'm glad you asked. It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of beers."

Made me think about this one ^
Because I blow at it.